Fearless Freedom…Becoming SoulFire
May the beauty of all that you are be reflected back upon you
and may you emanate it out into the world for all to bask in.
When I first signed the contract with the publishing company in January 2015, I inquired how long it usually takes someone to get a manuscript to them. “Do people take a year?” I asked jokingly. “That’s crazy, not me, “ I said. “I will get it to you in a month. It’s already written, I just need to organize it.”
My initial idea was to gather the blogs I had already written over the last eight years and compile them into a book. As I started arranging them, the thought entered my mind that I should include more of my personal story. I began writing, still with the intention of keeping it as a short story/blog with more emphasis on yoga and meditation.
However, God and the Universe had different plans.
Fate had it three months later in May, just as I finished the introduction on how I healed my life-long abandonment issue and am finally in a beautiful healthy relationship with my true love, he walked out on me.
Completely devastated. I spiraled down to the darkness… again.
In the garbage went my manuscript, and I began over. It turns out that my book was not going to be the nice easy blog compilation after all, but the vulnerable story of my life. This was the last undertaking I wanted to go on. I was trying to move on from my past, not re-live it. Nevertheless, somewhere in my awareness, I knew it was all happening for a reason.
I have come to learn that my life story is my teaching. My experiences of abandonment from birth until now have had a powerful purpose: to show others that it is possible, no matter what circumstances you came into the world with, to rise out of it, find your wings and soar. The abandonment, suffering and pain, I chose. I chose it however not to wallow in it, but to experience it, transform it and be a light for others. After all, it is not until we fully know darkness that we can fully know freedom.
After working with different editors, although they were helpful in one regard, I felt like my voice was being diluted and my message disappearing. The joy of writing was gone and feeling disheartened, I almost gave up at one point-then I re-remembered the reason for writing my book in the first place. The whole point of my life is not about fitting into a box, after all, but breaking free, being a trailblazer and forging new energetic pathways. So I decided not to use an editor and keep my book as is: in my voice, uncensored, real and raw. In allowing myself to write my story without worrying about “correct” parameters or trying to conform, I found the fluidity, freedom and truth of my soul’s song. I wrote for me, from the trueness of my heart.
When I started this journey I had no idea how powerful and cathartic it would be. The month turned into nearly two years as I journeyed into the center of my sorrow and my deepest pain. I had to walk away from writing numerous times as the past became alive again, along with the feelings I was trying to avoid. Tears are transformation though. The process of writing my life story healed me as I watched my sorrow turn into joy and my life transform. If no one reads my book, that in itself was worth it.
Although I finished writing my life story, a creative portal was open for me and I continued to receive inspired messages and continued to write. The quote I have taped on my laptop from a fortune cookie which I need constant reminder of is: “Four basic premises of writing: clarity, brevity, simplicity and humanity. I divided the manuscript into two books since there was so much. Hence, this is book one. Book two will be released shortly, and I’ve come to learn there will be a book three.
This book is multi-dimensional. I share my past but from my soul’s understanding and awakening now; part of the book is present moment realizations as I am writing, and part of the book is told verbatim in a journal format. I have included poems, parables, prayers, quotes, and excerpts from my favorite authors’ books for inspiration as well. I have found that people respond to metaphors as a way of learning; maybe it’s because it bypasses the logical left side of the brain and goes into the intuitive right side of the brain and down into the knowing heart.
The wisdom teachings of my soul, which you may recognize, are underlined and woven throughout the book. My story is not about the suffering or staying stuck in the human drama; rather, transcending it and coming home to the freedom, love and peace that we already are. It’s not about fighting the darkness anymore, it’s about simply choosing the light.
As a little girl I questioned what life was really about, thinking was this all there was to it? You are born, barely get by, work hard, sacrifice your dreams, retire, age, suffer, then die? I questioned all the needless suffering in the world- how one person, for example, could make millions of dollars to play a game with a ball for entertainment while thousands of innocent babies and children died every day from starvation. I didn’t understand religion or God. What I was taught didn’t make sense to me. I was born a seeker of truth and in my awakening I found it. What I have included in my book is what I have learned from my teachers and other enlightened beings, past and present, along with my own personal realizations. There is only one truth, but different interpretations and expressions of it.
Socrates said, “Learning is remembering.” Universal truth and knowledge is not something that someone just now created, it’s always been there waiting for us to uncover. Benjamin Franklin didn’t invent electricity just as Galileo didn’t invent gravity. They simply discovered it. We are at a point in our evolution as a species that we are discovering that what’s within us, our consciousness, our light, our soul, is the most powerful resource we have and the only thing left we haven’t tried that is going to save the world. Being a devoted student, hungry for healing and understanding on the spiritual path for the last sixteen years has shown me that there is no difference between science, quantum physics, yoga, Universal Law, original religion (before man got a hold of it), spirituality and love. Underlying all of it there is a basic truth- which is what this book is about.
There is a shift happening on the planet. We probably sense it, a stirring, an awakening. People are beginning to question their beliefs, their world view, question many things. There is a desire for less material goods and objects, and for more meaning, fulfillment, kindness, peace in the world and peace in our hearts. We are remembering that we are not separate-even though our bodies might say we are, that the countries and borders of our lands might say we are, but there is another Reality. We are re-remembering we are all brothers and sisters in consciousness, a global family and that all life is interconnected, interrelated, and interdependent, including Gaia, Mother Earth. The divine truth is that we are One-One Spirit, many forms. It’s time to wake up and work together. It is time to be our brother’s and sister’s keeper.
I honor all people wherever they are in their journey as we are all in different phases of our spiritual unfoldment. As you read my book, all I ask of you is to keep an open mind and read with your instinctual awareness and intuitive nature that is always present. Feel the energy between the words and the essence of spirit behind what they are expressing. It can serve as a spark to ignite what you already know deep within. Words are not truth. Truth is eternal. Words are a symbol. As I wrote this book I felt it shifting, changing, and growing as I was evolving along side of it. What may be my truth might just be a seed of awakening for you, like a sunflower drawing darkness from roots to sunlight.
I have infused my healing love into this book, it has been blessed with the most highest of intentions. My hope is that it brings you back to your free heart, wakes you up to the glory, wonderment and truth of who you really are and ignites the fire within your own beautiful soul. You are light, you are love and you are loved.
May the beauty of all that you are be reflected back upon you and may you emanate it out into the world for all to bask in.
“As each person releases shame and self-loathing and chooses instead to love themselves, they make it easier for every person on Earth to replace self-judgment with self-love. That is, they create a vibration or resonance of love that radiates well beyond their immediate sphere. It is said that the flutter of a butterfly’s wings can cause gale-force winds on the other side of the globe. In the same way, our decisions to love ourselves have far-reaching energetic effects. As we shift from the perspective of the personality to that of the soul, we recall a truth we knew long before we were born-that our actions, words, and thoughts impinge upon the entire world. By surmounting the challenges we planned before birth, we create a resonance that heals humanity.”
— Your Soul’s Plan by Robert Schwartz
Reviews for Fearless Freedom
Couldn’t put it down!
As women we are faced with a world of challenges everyday of our lives. How we overcome and live through them takes us on so many different paths. This story was an incredible journey and I personally was unable to put it down the moment I began reading it. At times it brought me to tears and other times smiles of joy. SoulFire’s story is an inspiration to say the very least, to see where she is now from where she came from and all the roads in between.
I am grateful to SoulFire for sharing her journey and giving us the opportunity to look deeper into ourselves and perhaps borrowing her strength to overcome some of our own obstacles. I look forward to Books 2 and 3.
— Elysa K.
I just finished your inspiring book. It’s powerful and revealing. I sympathize, empathize and relate to so many themes. A human experience indeed.
Abandonment and not feeling seen are tremendous wounds for me. I know I’m not alone with my feelings. Not that misery needs company or that I’m miserable. I’m not. Life, and love, have been very generous to me in fact.
My greatest challenge that has come to light is trusting people and the consequences of having expectations. My heart wears armor; seldom removed.
Thank you. Sharing your journey has allowed my to look at mine from a slightly different angle.
I never ever read a book. I’m almost half way through yours. Outside of a couple of spelling mistakes (lol), it’s really incredible. You’ve lived the lives of a thousand people and I’m only half way through!! I’ve adored you since the day we met, but now there’s a level of respect that I almost never give. Amazing story.
— R. M.
I just have to tell you how much I love your book. It is so easy to read so insightful so inspiring. I can’t say enough about it bless you for writing it!!! I’m almost halfway through and I’m already looking forward to having another one of your books on my shelf.❤️
Hope to connect again soon.
Love and Light.
EVERYONE SHOULD READ THIS GREAT BOOK! YOU WON’T BE ABLE TO PUT IT DOWN!
I highly recommend reading “Fearless Freedom.” It is an excellent book courageously written in the most genuine and heartfelt way possible. When you read this wonderful true story you will experience every possible human emotion. It is one woman’s incredibly difficult life journey and how she was able to triumph over and over again even in the face of great adversity. It is testament to the resilience of the human spirit. This book is destined to help multitudes of people find hope and healing as it provides the necessary positive tools to cope with all the peaks and valleys of life. Many thanks to SoulFire for selflessly allowing herself to be open and vulnerable in this extremely honest story in order to touch the lives of her fellow souls and enable their healing process to occur. This book bears reading multiple times to receive the full benefit of its wisdom. I recommend buying many copies to give to family and friends.
— K. Bannon
I thought it was very courageous and honest. We in society don’t openly talk about our daily challenges but this will show us how to be open and that we are not alone. How to put the right foot in front of the left foot and go forward. I related to so many of the feelings. It helped me feel more empowered! We can do it. Thank you SoulFire!
— Linda Varady
SoulFire’s story is one of incredible transformation and perseverance. Her story will awaken your own warrior spirit and give you the courage to step out of your fears and into your freedom. Her story is bold and fearless and her gift of love, vulnerability, and transformation will inspire all who read her book.
— Tom Chambers
I want to tell you what’s going on with me. I’m in Big Sky, Montana and Yellowstone. We are on a family vacation, my daughter, Carleigh, from Denver and her boyfriend, and my younger daughter, Chelsea and Paul, my husband. It is so wonderful being all together, yesterday was my birthday, we went white water rafting and just being together makes it the best birthday gift.
But, you are here with me too. I started your book just before I left for the trip and read it here every morning, before anyone else wakes up, and at night before falling asleep. I can’t express how it makes me feel while reading. I am saddened at times, feel very much at peace at other times, and learn so much about myself most of the time. I just read the part about why our daughters are so angry and have a chip on their shoulder. That explains it!!
My plan is to read again, as soon as I’m done with the first reading, and take it slower and highlight things and write about my feelings and thoughts. I can’t wait to do that.
I hope all is well with you. Thank you for writing this book.
— With love, Chris
A must read. Inspiring and written from the heart.
A wonderfully honest and uplifting memoir, with plenty of insight into becoming the person you want to be.
— T. Francis
What you have done/are doing is not only extraordinary, it’s courageous…
You have been through sooo much and you are teaching others that in the face of adversity and pain—transformation is not only possible but it’s necessary…
I am both proud of you and inspired by you…
And now you will continue to see the light in every situation and by helping others do you same you and others like you will heal the world…
With love and admiration,
Self admittedly I am the world’s worst casual reader but SoulFire has taught me so much that I gladly accepted the gift of her book, “Fearless Freedom.” I am a husband and father of two beautiful boys, but life presented us with a setback recently. SoulFire has become my teacher and her book my inspiration to immerse myself in my own personal alpha moments. It made me laugh, cry, and self reflect. For me it wasn’t about the story of her personal travails, it was about learning to live and love yourself. Read this book and God bless you SoulFire.
Your book is opening up so much emotion for me! From tears to laughter, shock and awe. Feeling your pain and strength and frustrations. I can’t put it down! Thank you for sharing your story! You are an incredible soul!